Tomorrow is the second part of the saga. Chewster Episode 4, EXAMS!!! I wonder what if they made it into a movie. Crap! i haven't been preparing for this upcoming exams.. God please work a miracle. OMG tomorrow is Geography and Mathematics!!! NoOoOoo...

Btw i got a new hair cut. Look way much better than long & messy hair. I'm soo paranoid now. Stress at the same time. 10 points and below T_T. I think i'm going crazy!?!@!#!%^!@*($.

Anyway i didn't catch any sleep last night due to many many things on my mind. *Brain Overload* Was awake the whole night not doing anything. Can't study at all with all the stupid family matters to solve. Am still regretting that i didn't go for service yesterday. Don't worry Marcus. I know what to do. Psalms 119 again.. Kinda miss my old buddy Psalms 119. Haven't seen that book for ages. The last time I saw it was at Sunny's place. Crap... i'm crapping my way thru this post.

Thinking of ending my studies path if i don't make it in the N's. Is this a good idea? maybe i'm stupid afterall. God please help me and answer my prayers... Please... Pretty Please??...

Father is cranky right now and i'm kind of pissed off. This environment sucks. I actually went to the toilet and broke down in tears before i went off the get my hair cut. What the hack la.. There is this though of dying too. Just let me die peace please. God i hate all these rubbish. I need an end to all these non-sense. argh

♥ 19:01

I missed service cause i overslept today =( I've yet again regretted something i did and why didn't i take the initiative to set as many alarms as possible to get me outta bed. Kind of pissed at myself. Am i ever gonna change? I need some kind of break through in this area! btw my dog and i have something in-common. We sleep alot

♥ 21:42

Finally my mom & dad is back home from wherever they came from(holiday and fishing)

I did something really stupid and regretted doing it. Man i really wish i thought of the consequences before doing it. Now i'm really regretting it! Did many stupid things in the past and i just want to clear all these stupid "marks" from the past.

Daryl came to my house and stayed over yesterday and i think it was a new experience. It was a last minute thing since we were at PP macs from 10-11 when he decided to stay. Wasn't really prepared so he kinda squeezed into my bed and we slept like curled up prawns. Woke up this morning and we went to meet Marcus & Chee Hwee at about 10.30am? stayed there for about 5-10mins then we left for Sengkang to get a new bank account for CH and Daryl was giving us a treat to hot chocolate. I chose hot vanilla and it tasted better than the rich and thick hot chocolate. CH regretted taking the hot chocolate and kept making noise so he had a stupid idea of making his drink more worth. He went to the counter and asked for more hot water in his drink. Guess what.. The lady added a little too much and his drink tasted like warm water. He tried doing stupid things like stirring it or pulling it like those in the teh tarik store to trick himself that it'll taste better but it was the same. hahaha.

So after the drink, we went back to PP at 1.30pm. We reached PP macs again at 2pm and we started studying till 3.45pm and thats when En Ting and Chilli came. Daryl went back home to do some big business!! from 2pm till 4pm for God knows what he was doing and he came back to macs at 4. After that, we headed off to Donny Lum's house for our Prayer Meet. Thank God for Lumpy, we have a place to hold our prayer meeting. After PM, we had our usual taupok session going on and Jun hong was the target for today. MJ being the tikopek one gave Jun hong a real PAIN in the ass. And we weggie Jun hong too. Marcus and I was having a steam pack battle in the room and it turned out that both parties had red chest in the end. It didn't end there as MJ gave Jun hong a low-blow. God that must have hurt! Well.. guys will be guys and they can do outrageous things. Hope Jun hong's lil brother is still alive o_O... hahaha

And btw this is one of the few chinese songs that i like. Its a new song from Kelvin Tan(blind guitarist) and i think it sounds nice

♥ 21:38

Everyday is a step closer to my exams and i don't think i'm prepared for it. It sucks to remain at a place for so long when people are already advancing forward. I really wanna do well this time and get out of that school. Sometimes i just feel like running far away from where i am right now. I'll just run to some place called Machu Picchu

Why can't i be like an average student. A pass it all i'm asking for. A pass that can take me one step ahead to further carry on my studies. Its not that i do not like studying. I just feel like dying sometimes. I wonder how would my life be like if it was illustrated into a story/movie. Would it be boring? or exciting? i want to check this show out -Stranger Than Fiction-

♥ 03:30

If i'm not wrong it happened on a friday night when Marcus and I boarded the bus to head home. There was this indian lady opposite us and she was like smiling at us. Guess she was totally obsessed with Marcus's charming face.

♥ 03:22

Omg this commercial is damn funny la

♥ 22:04

haha its my second post for today and i'm feeling unwell now. Traveled from serengoon area to red hill to potong pasir to home then to sim lim then back to potong pasir then home again. All these traveling made me giddy and felt like puking.

I kinda fallen in love with indian commercial. I think they are super cool la. Here is one more to share with you readers

♥ 20:13

Didn't go to school today due to some personal reasons and i'm now watching some morning news and realised that Jolin chai? isn't that pretty at all and infact she looks abit spastic which can relate to En Ting very well. Don't know why so many ppl in my school look up to this singer which i can't even understand what the hack she is singing/blabbering. I'm not really in the mood to do anything now. Its like suffering from some depression status.

I'm currently praying for my maternal side grandma who is in Toronto now and she is suffering from piles. I really hope she'll get better till she's back.

And what do you think of my new clock at the bottom? nice? please leave some comments thanks =)

I've decided to share this stupid advertisement from M1 Specially dedicated to Sunny


Chewster out

♥ 09:09

Ptff.. Need to unload all thats in my mind now. Been thinking all night about stuff that randomly comes in. So random that it can varies from Burger King to Rugby to Asus. I haven't been in good terms with my dad these few days. Although he is behind me right now, i doubt he can see due to his poor eye sight.
Sigh... I kind of lost control of myself on friday night. Don't know what triggered me off and made me so angry. I think it was the constant nagging at home and i just l couldn't take it anymore. I smash the toilet mirror and got into a fight with my dad. I didn't want to break the mirror but it was so sudden i just didn't know what to do. My fist flew right into the mirror thinking that the mirror could take the blow but i was shocked when i heard a loud and draggy crashing sound and realised that i've broken the whole mirror. It shocked me and i didn't want that to happen as well. Haven't been talking to my dad since. When i tried to talk to him, he wouldn't answer me. I guess i really pissed him off this time.

Yesterday's service was awesome. The atmosphere was energetic and wanted the night to carry on but everyone needs rest so i guess after a long day, the singers needed a break too. Well have a break, have a Kit-Kat =) After service yesterday, we had some "taupok" session and then we went to burger king to chill(what a nice place to chill). Saw many old familiar faces like Jeremiah, Jia Sheng, Joel², Priscilla and many more. Wanted to speak to Marcus but sadly he didn't have time as he had to go back home. I didn't want to go home yesterday but i have no where else to go. Wanted to go to Ferrar Park but i didn't have the keys to the house. The keys are in Canada right now with my mom. So i ended up walking with some of my group guys to Pasir Ris mrt station and met up with Cedric there. Shared a cab home with him and another dude with a unique name.

Was slacking at home and the whole house so quiet. No one was talking and no sign of communication was shown last night. I was thinking the whole night till i had gastric pains. I went to unload all the waste materials twice last night. It was horrible. My @**H*LE was foaming T_T it sounds gross anyway. Don't read it when you're eating!

Names i'm thinking of now : JP Pieterson, Brian Habana, Percy Montgomery. Theses are the names of ruggers from south africa.

I've saved about 30% and need another 70% more to reach my goal for this year. I hope i can accomplish it by end of this year.

♥ 10:02

I've been thinking all night and wonder why didn't anyone inform me about CG today? Kinda sad about that and secondly i was quite angry that my jersey number got taken when i had already chooses that number a long time ago and inform them about it. Well i guess that i'm not that important nor what ever i say is important as well. Going to bed now and hope i might forget everything that has happened today. Well i forgive all that has happen today and i really hope theres a change..

♥ 03:08

Blogging from my cousin's place after watching High School Musical 2. It was kinda fun here and we had pizza for dinner. Haha was having fun watching Hannah Montana and High School Musical 2 and realised that some of the songs are nice =) Leaving this place soon after Ms Sleeping Beauty finishes bathing. Feeling really tired now since i had only about 6hrs of sleep last night.

Watching Nick Cannon presenting Wild N Out now. haha kinda hilarious since both black guys insulting each other through rapping. I wonder what happens when 2 black guys in Singapore insult each other? hmm just wonder..

Been typing this for about 15mins already and Ms Sleeping Beauty hasn't finish bathing. Even Nick Cannon's Wild N Out has already ended....

HuRRy UpP!!

♥ 21:35

Missed service today =( i wasn't feeling well today and had sun burns all over my back and shoulder. Went to sentosa yesterday with the NEB peoples and the contacts(will post photos when Huaxiang comes online to send the photos). Had so much fun there and got injured when playing beach soccer with some of the people there. Kinda sprain my ankle and had a part of my ankle skin scraped off. Thank God for this lifeguard that dressed my wound and she wanted to wrap my leg but my leg was covered in sand so was the right time to wrap it.

Had to walk for about 6-7mins to the nearest shower and wash up and thanks Marcus for walking with me with my injured leg =) After cleaning up, we went to vivo to have our dinner. Had BK and after that everyone went home. I went window shopping with Marcus before we went home. Walked around vivo and started talking about soccer legends =) haha had fun yesterday but today ain't fun.. the would started to leak blood and my nose bled too.. had fever in the morning as well. Woke up at around 12.30 to spit the blood out and went back to my bed.. Thanks mom for leaving 10 bucks on the table when you left. Kinda broke these few weeks.. haven't been spending much because of that..

I have some serious issues with people around me and i kinda hate it when people are like self centered and they don't give a damn about what others thinks. I'm kinda pissed because of that and i've spoken to my shepherd about it. I really don't see any change in the person. Just really angry about that. Why some people just care about themselves and don't give a sh*t about other? Its really irritating when there are these kind of people around.

I've been writing this post for more than 3hours and i haven't finish my post. Was waiting for someone to just send me some photos and all i got was a reply of will upload it next week -_-" God i hate those kinda replies.. anyway i have to finish this post soon or someone is gonna get hurt real bad.. zzz that was so random.. hahaha

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♥ 21:46

Been wanting to post something for the past 3 days but couldn't find the perfect time till now. Too many things happened this week and i think some are rather unavoidable. I kinda screwed up my Social Studies papers cause i wasn't feeling well when i did my papers. Had Chinese Listening Comprehension on the morning on that day (4 Sept) and the LC started at 8 but i reached there at 8.30am. Thank God that the LC was hosted on a local radio station and it started at about 8.35am. After the LC, we had a 4 hours interval to our next papers. Went to eat some lunch with my classmates and went to macs to study some SS but i couldn't even concentrate a single bit. My head was spinning and kinda tired also. As i went for my papers, i felt like vomiting and started my papers with an empty mind. I did my papers for the first 30mins and i felt like resting my head. I placed my head on my table and soon fell asleep. Woke up only when my papers ended and i didn't know what to do. I felt down and lousy. I rushed back home after that and went straight to sleep in my uniform. Was supposed to meet up with Marcus and some other people at Macs but i really didn't feel like staying out any longer.

Slept in my uniform till next morning and went for my English papers. After my English papers, CheeHwee and i went for Metamorphosis at Nexus. When we arrived at Nexus, it was already the lunch break and we didn't know what to do. We eventually went for the extended prayer meet. Prayed for afew people and was really exhausted after the whole event and thank God, now Bael/Bill/Beal was touched by the holy spirit and now can communicate in tongues.

When i got home after the whole event, i was shocked to see my sister with a lip piercing. Well she got scolded for that piercing. Was quite angry with her for getting that piercing too. Anyway she is always like this. Well.. i shall get going now.

♥ 17:50

Was feeling really sick for the past 2 weeks already!! Dunno whats wrong with me. Anyway i'm having me exams this coming monday!! Nooo~ wahhh~ Kinda scared infact.. I wanted to post something yesterday night but i was too tired to even switch on my comp & i fell asleep with my outing clothings.. Eww smelly! but its a guys thing la.. I was dreaming the whole night and eventually woke up on the other end of the bed.. That means i turned a whole 180degrees when i was sleeping o_O.. beat that dudes. Its kind of a record for me too. I met up with Cedric and we went to drink and eat tau hui. Haha i was disturbing him with my tamil chinese. Yuan de bu nen nah, Fang de ke yi nah, Na le jio bao zah. can anyone figure that out?

Was supposed to meet up with Jem and head the usual way home thru Little India but he had CG and after CG, their group went to watch a movie. So went to drink tau hui with Cedric lor. Took a bus back home after that. Tired tired. Took my medication right after lunch and that was a major mistake.. -.- i became drowsy and was walking like a drunked. Tried to study with my group and thanks to En Ting, all of them left and i was alone from 3+ till 6+. I couldn't even study and worst i was dozing off once in awhile while doing my maths paper. Was stoning the whole time at the papers. Man how am i going to do my N papers T_T. I saw the NS guys (knew some of them) and they needed a table so i gave them my table at Meridien foodcourt and went to socialise with them till around 8 then they had to leave one by one. So i was alone till about 10+ then i met up with Cedric at BK then we went to drink tau hui lor.. i was flying man.. haha like a drunked.. -.- am i repeating everything i said ontop? the sign off hangover? anyway i need to sleep soon so good bye and God bless those people who are taking their N's this week

♥ 23:31

Was having my caregroup on thurday and after CG, we went to play soccer. Marcus and his guys played for awhile and they left as some of them had to go off.
Then i went to join this group of NAN CHIAU HIGH SCHOOL people and got their contact numbers =) i hope to bring them to church someday.. =) was playing soccer with them and some funny joker goalkeeper went to kick this ball right into my P part and i was standing within 5metres away from him... GOD that hurts damn bad! within 5mins, i had my own goalie kick the ball into the same spot. a lil bit higher but it hurts as bad! my goodness. i thought that was the last of the painful moments but i had someone ram a ball straight into the back of my head when i was seated on the ground waiting for our team to beat their butts~ man what a day.. anyway i got the NAN CHIAU dudes numbers.. what a great achievement. Somehow i find that, that school has such a crude name.. anyway forget it, its stupid..

Happy Birthday Marcus =)

Gotta get ready to go for service... jai jian for now =)

♥ 08:21