28 Mar 2009
ps: I love you. I really do
Its been 6 days since since I've left Singapore. I'm beginning to miss so many people back in Singapore.
I love my dad for bringing my camera to London for me and these are the few shots I took upon receiving my camera. Thanks Dad.
Currently London is a wet and dampy country. Its freezing as well. As I was walking with my dad back to the apartment, it rained and there was hail stones too! Hail stones are rain drops that freezes before hitting the ground so its quite dangerous to walk in the hail stones cause they are basically ice bits falling from the sky.
I've been thinking extraordinary these past 6 days. I have left someone whom I want to be with back in Singapore and yet things have been really bad. I just can't imaging that things would turn out this way. Spoke to my uncle and he's one encouraging guy. I thank God for blessing me with him! I really appreciate God for placing him in my life too! It was his encouragement and my family that made me change for the better. I really love him alot. His care and concern for people is far greater than any other relatives. Not being bias but I find that he has alot more knowledge to advice people around him. Amazing guy and I hope that he'll continue to do what he's doing to impact more people around. He a millionaire too but he doesn't take credit for his wealth and fortune. I'm amazed by his character! This guy is a man of God. His principles are backed-up with Godly principles.
I believe that this is causing me to worry so much on current situation. What is success and faithfulness? Which is more important. This was the question my uncle asked. I replied him to achieve success for my state, is to have faithfulness being successful. This was what he replied, to have success is to fulfill goals that have been planned out and faithfulness is to keep in view of your goals and not to keep changing goals. There was this guy that has this goal. In his life, the only goal that he wants to achieve is to be an astronaut. After afew years, he achieved his goal and was sent to space. And afew years later, he was back and he became mad. The reason why he became mad was because there wasn't anymore goals for him. He basically had only one goal in life and after fulfilling it, he has no more will to live. It sucks eh?
I'll find more time to blog once again and These are the only 2 photos I'll share now. I'll find more time to post photos again.
Cheers readerS!
I just hope things would change for the better. I really hope so!♥ 20:09
26 Mar 2009
This is the 4th day in London and things have been really messed up. People I've left behind haven't been all well and I'm really concern about them. I myself am thinking of getting a new flight back to Singapore as soon as possible.
I was so deep in thoughts that I lost my way back to my apartment and ended up walking in the cold summer nights with temperature as low as 2 degrees. Freezing myself off while walking back to where I don't know! I ended up taking the 2nd most expensive taxi ride. Its roughly around $50SGD and that wasn't the most expensive cab ride I've took. The most expensive one was in Paris where the fare was $200SGD. Believe it or not. It was the most I've spent on one taxi ride but I must say that it was a comfortable ride. I got lost twice yesterday due to deep thinking and ended up somewhere which I don't know where I was. The worst part was that my battery died on me again but thank God that this time I had an extra phone but I didn't really used it.
Managed to get back to my apartment before 12am and I just blacked out once I hit my bed. Woke up early this morning and started to think once again. My mind never stops thinking about those who means alot to me . I just hope to be back soon to help those who are suffering and I really want to help them.
These are the current issues on my mind and cheers readers.. Sigh =\
I was so deep in thoughts that I lost my way back to my apartment and ended up walking in the cold summer nights with temperature as low as 2 degrees. Freezing myself off while walking back to where I don't know! I ended up taking the 2nd most expensive taxi ride. Its roughly around $50SGD and that wasn't the most expensive cab ride I've took. The most expensive one was in Paris where the fare was $200SGD. Believe it or not. It was the most I've spent on one taxi ride but I must say that it was a comfortable ride. I got lost twice yesterday due to deep thinking and ended up somewhere which I don't know where I was. The worst part was that my battery died on me again but thank God that this time I had an extra phone but I didn't really used it.
Managed to get back to my apartment before 12am and I just blacked out once I hit my bed. Woke up early this morning and started to think once again. My mind never stops thinking about those who means alot to me . I just hope to be back soon to help those who are suffering and I really want to help them.
These are the current issues on my mind and cheers readers.. Sigh =\
♥ 17:00
23 Mar 2009
My days in London aren't making me excited about it at all. Firstly I never like to leave my close ones back home in SG. My whole family is back in SG while I'm alone here with my uncle. Don't be mistaken, I love my uncle very much. Its just that 2 of us in a foreign country alone.
Something I like about this country is that my movie DL speed rules all others!! A 799MB movie takes around 10mins(fastest record) to 30mins(slowest record).
Plans to visit the Buckingham palace and Hillsong London. Can't wait for those to happen. Shoppings here are awesome as well. For 5 pound, I can get a top from brands like esprit, Topman and Dorothy Perkins. I just can't imaging the sales they have here. How low can they pull down to. A suit from H&M cost mearly 60 pounds. That's a great buy! Just have to watch what I'm spending on. I've already spend 100 pounds for travel around London from the airport to the apartment where I met my uncle and I'm staying there currently.
After arriving in London, I made my first phone call to my dad informing that I've touched down safely and there's nothing to worry about for me. In fact that I got sort of lost @ the train station. To be honest, the station is HUGE and its not like any Dolby Ghaut station. Its almost 3 to 4 times bigger than that!! Amazingly I had my phone battery died on me and the last phone call I made was to my uncle. His words to me was to take a cab to where he was and I followed his instructions to hire a cab. My first cab fare was 5 pounds and my uncle said it was relatively cheap! I thought that I did something right for once but when Nicky told me about how near the station was to the apartment, I realised that I've been scammed! Getting lost on the first day upon arrival. Haha what an experience.
No photos for now but I'll update soon. I have really good Internet connection here. Cheers readers (:
Get well soon alright? It hurt to see you suffering from all these that are happening.. I hope you'll seek God for strength =)
Something I like about this country is that my movie DL speed rules all others!! A 799MB movie takes around 10mins(fastest record) to 30mins(slowest record).
Plans to visit the Buckingham palace and Hillsong London. Can't wait for those to happen. Shoppings here are awesome as well. For 5 pound, I can get a top from brands like esprit, Topman and Dorothy Perkins. I just can't imaging the sales they have here. How low can they pull down to. A suit from H&M cost mearly 60 pounds. That's a great buy! Just have to watch what I'm spending on. I've already spend 100 pounds for travel around London from the airport to the apartment where I met my uncle and I'm staying there currently.
After arriving in London, I made my first phone call to my dad informing that I've touched down safely and there's nothing to worry about for me. In fact that I got sort of lost @ the train station. To be honest, the station is HUGE and its not like any Dolby Ghaut station. Its almost 3 to 4 times bigger than that!! Amazingly I had my phone battery died on me and the last phone call I made was to my uncle. His words to me was to take a cab to where he was and I followed his instructions to hire a cab. My first cab fare was 5 pounds and my uncle said it was relatively cheap! I thought that I did something right for once but when Nicky told me about how near the station was to the apartment, I realised that I've been scammed! Getting lost on the first day upon arrival. Haha what an experience.
No photos for now but I'll update soon. I have really good Internet connection here. Cheers readers (:
Get well soon alright? It hurt to see you suffering from all these that are happening.. I hope you'll seek God for strength =)
♥ 20:11
18 Mar 2009
Haven't slept in 25 hours and counting.. I find that sleeping becomes a chore but I need to rest. Why does this happen again. I never wanted this to happen but somehow, it just comes back. I'm seriously a glutton for punishment. A magnet for problems as well. Somehow problems find its way to me and I have to face them myself. I need to end all these. Balance out my life properly. Dropping all these and running away from all these doesn't stop there. I have to find a solution to end this issue. My life wasted by thinking so much. How I hope I'll never come to this extend to lose the friendship between us.d
School today was pretty amazing. I am still wondering how I managed to stay awake for my lectures! I guess my teacher made the lesson interesting. I feel that my system might be breaking down soon. I guess it'll end all misery but I'm afraid that it would affect my family. I don't know who else it'll affect but I guess that it doesn't matter much either.
I wanna get a new Nicholas. Maybe after NS, I'll probably migrate away from Singapore. I may sound selfish but I see it as an opportunity to not invite problems back to myself. I wanna runaway! Far far away.. I need to breakaway too.. What you may see in my physical self isn't my emotional self. I may look fine but inside of me is all broken up. To an extend that I don't know who I am anymore. All I know is that I love my God & Family. I don't even know who I am anymore. Losing my identity. Who in the world is Nicholas Chew. Who gives a damn who I am. Who I am doesn't matter to anyone. I'm just a freaking human who's lost his identity. I wanna find back my identity in Christ. I just find it useless to live on like that. Even thou I proclaim my Lord's name and I accept Him as my Lord, my God & my savior. I find myself being the worst or the worst. Jesus please take me to where all these wouldn't matter!!!!
I'm facing the edge of the cliff and I don't know what's my next step gonna be..
School today was pretty amazing. I am still wondering how I managed to stay awake for my lectures! I guess my teacher made the lesson interesting. I feel that my system might be breaking down soon. I guess it'll end all misery but I'm afraid that it would affect my family. I don't know who else it'll affect but I guess that it doesn't matter much either.
I wanna get a new Nicholas. Maybe after NS, I'll probably migrate away from Singapore. I may sound selfish but I see it as an opportunity to not invite problems back to myself. I wanna runaway! Far far away.. I need to breakaway too.. What you may see in my physical self isn't my emotional self. I may look fine but inside of me is all broken up. To an extend that I don't know who I am anymore. All I know is that I love my God & Family. I don't even know who I am anymore. Losing my identity. Who in the world is Nicholas Chew. Who gives a damn who I am. Who I am doesn't matter to anyone. I'm just a freaking human who's lost his identity. I wanna find back my identity in Christ. I just find it useless to live on like that. Even thou I proclaim my Lord's name and I accept Him as my Lord, my God & my savior. I find myself being the worst or the worst. Jesus please take me to where all these wouldn't matter!!!!
I'm facing the edge of the cliff and I don't know what's my next step gonna be..
♥ 03:04
17 Mar 2009
I've never liked my life. I find that problems are always beside me. I find that my life is seriously unfair. I don't understand why does it always have to be like this. It will always happen to me. No matter what I do nor what I don't do. Sighs
♥ 04:34
Sometimes I do wonder if the devil is mocking me? I feel so caught up & being placed in a tight spot now. Somehow rather, I find that the people around me are controlling me and watching out for what I do. This feels like as thou I'm a prisoner or some wanted person. I feel like I'm taking the final step towards the cliff and its only one more step over the cliff. I just feel like taking that one last step. The selfish me and the not so sensible me is taking over me once again. God why is all these happening in my life? I wouldn't want it to be like this. Life is just plain complicated. Sad and complicated. Why must this happen again & again.
♥ 03:00
15 Mar 2009
Something's bothering me right now . I can't seem to sleep =\ Guess I won't be resting till much later.. Sigh
♥ 05:12
Throughout this week, there were many incidents that happened. Korean BBQ, Projects, School, Birthdays and More Birthday Celebrations.
Guess I don't have any inspiration to blog now. Have to rest early for tomorrow too.. Ciaos
Guess I don't have any inspiration to blog now. Have to rest early for tomorrow too.. Ciaos
♥ 00:54
6 Mar 2009
Previous post was just a post with emotions . I believe that we should live each day for God & not men . Who are you that I should be living each day for you ? I am nothing before my creator & I know that there are so much that has been happening . Even as for myself , I'm being affected deeply BUT! (Nehemiah 8:10) for the joy of the LORD is your strength. I think that mainly these happenings that are taking place is because satan wants to shake our foundations. I have to continue this post another time since I have no inspiration to continue on.
♥ 02:04