Its destined that I'm not fit nor ready to play a part in a relationship. I think its unfair that people get to experience it yet I'm left all alone to sit in a corner and emo. Its really demoralising and I guess its time for me to move on. But how can I move on with life when there are so many things happening co-currently at the same time? I can't focus all at a single time and Its really unfair. I wonder if those people ever felt my sincerity I've shown? Or its all just fun and games. Guess my time for now is up and its time for me to rest. I can't go on living this way. I'll soon just break down and lose my mind which I don't want it to happen.
I really want to affirm a few people for standing up side by side with me through thick and thin. He's Kenneth and he's someone you don't want to mess with. He encouraged me a couple hours ago and tried to change my emotions but it all went to waste. But I really want to thank this *brother* of mine. Its been a pleasure knowing you. I have never regretted knowing you. Thank you once again.
I don't understand how this game works. I don't know the rules, I do wish to abide with the rules but its a barrier that's stopping me from getting to it. People make it sound so easy yet once I'd tried it, it got me to emotional, I nearly couldn't take it. I want to live like a normal teenager who's growing out of one. But now, I guess its all up to me to decide for my own self. And can I love like a normal person? Why are there so many obstacles to face. It's really been a tough journey through this run and I do hope that when its nearer to the finishing line, I can see someone waiting for me there, waiting to carry me back into His arms. Its just that Nicholas don't see the big picture in life. There are more things in life to treasure about and yet he's being stuck in this area of love. When is he going to ever step out of this area and move on with life? As this post continues, tears are flowing down rapidly. Emotions is really a sensitive issue and must be treated with care. Unable to fulfil its requirements, don't bother entering it. The out come of it is tremendous.
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