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Salohcin.
i'm your soul.


Nicholas a.k.a Chewster
saint andrew's school

1 Chronicles 16:11
Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.


strike out.


A New Wallet
An Asus G2
An Ipod Touch or Ipod Classic
An Iphone
A Personal Desktop
To Go Walt Disney Studio In Paris
To Go Walt Disney Studio In Japan
DSLR Cannon 50D Lost
A BMW M3/M6
A BMW 330i
Learn Driving
Complete my studies
Learn Diving

hearts talking.



alternative exits.


Benn
Benn Xie
Cedric
Chanel
Chee Hwee
Chester Elisha Lee
Clarence
Darren Lee
Daryl Elijah Low
Deborah
Desmond Mark
Huixian
Irene
Isaac
Iva
Jan
JemJem
Jolene
Jolene
Kenneth
Krisstle
Marcus Hosea Loke
Nigel Zachariah
Michelle Bliss
Pauline Sim
Peter
Phoebe
Richard Tan
Scott
See Peng
Sharon
Sherman Isaiah
Titus
Yan Ping
Zen
Curious

my days, not yours.

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18 Mar 2009

Haven't slept in 25 hours and counting.. I find that sleeping becomes a chore but I need to rest. Why does this happen again. I never wanted this to happen but somehow, it just comes back. I'm seriously a glutton for punishment. A magnet for problems as well. Somehow problems find its way to me and I have to face them myself. I need to end all these. Balance out my life properly. Dropping all these and running away from all these doesn't stop there. I have to find a solution to end this issue. My life wasted by thinking so much. How I hope I'll never come to this extend to lose the friendship between us.d

School today was pretty amazing. I am still wondering how I managed to stay awake for my lectures! I guess my teacher made the lesson interesting. I feel that my system might be breaking down soon. I guess it'll end all misery but I'm afraid that it would affect my family. I don't know who else it'll affect but I guess that it doesn't matter much either.

I wanna get a new Nicholas. Maybe after NS, I'll probably migrate away from Singapore. I may sound selfish but I see it as an opportunity to not invite problems back to myself. I wanna runaway! Far far away.. I need to breakaway too.. What you may see in my physical self isn't my emotional self. I may look fine but inside of me is all broken up. To an extend that I don't know who I am anymore. All I know is that I love my God & Family. I don't even know who I am anymore. Losing my identity. Who in the world is Nicholas Chew. Who gives a damn who I am. Who I am doesn't matter to anyone. I'm just a freaking human who's lost his identity. I wanna find back my identity in Christ. I just find it useless to live on like that. Even thou I proclaim my Lord's name and I accept Him as my Lord, my God & my savior. I find myself being the worst or the worst. Jesus please take me to where all these wouldn't matter!!!!

I'm facing the edge of the cliff and I don't know what's my next step gonna be..


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