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Salohcin.
i'm your soul.


Nicholas a.k.a Chewster
saint andrew's school

1 Chronicles 16:11
Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.


strike out.


A New Wallet
An Asus G2
An Ipod Touch or Ipod Classic
An Iphone
A Personal Desktop
To Go Walt Disney Studio In Paris
To Go Walt Disney Studio In Japan
DSLR Cannon 50D Lost
A BMW M3/M6
A BMW 330i
Learn Driving
Complete my studies
Learn Diving

hearts talking.



alternative exits.


Benn
Benn Xie
Cedric
Chanel
Chee Hwee
Chester Elisha Lee
Clarence
Darren Lee
Daryl Elijah Low
Deborah
Desmond Mark
Huixian
Irene
Isaac
Iva
Jan
JemJem
Jolene
Jolene
Kenneth
Krisstle
Marcus Hosea Loke
Nigel Zachariah
Michelle Bliss
Pauline Sim
Peter
Phoebe
Richard Tan
Scott
See Peng
Sharon
Sherman Isaiah
Titus
Yan Ping
Zen
Curious

my days, not yours.

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thank you.

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15 Apr 2009

I have always love-ed you and this isn't how I want it to become. I really hope that think would change in time to come. I pray that God will let a change in this situation that is happening.
God I want to start me daily devotion with you once again.. Its about time I want to get serious with my devotion.. I've been delaying this for a really long time and I cannot live without You.. Its an unbearable pain without You and I felt that you drifted further and further each day I stop communicating to you.. I thank You for my uncle who did encourage me to talk to You and commit myself to you each day I'm alive.. I do feel that my life is already been wasted and I have nothing else but you.. I messed up the past few months and I thought I had a genuine relationship with you but I've been feeding up the wrong area in my life.. I need to get back on track with you.. I really want to have a better relationship with you each time I talk to you.. I do want to get back back with you and I've decided to start somewhere.. Lord please hear my prayers and show me a revelation.. Show me how my relations with You will be in time to come.. Go, this is what I want to receive from you currently.. I've got so much more to ask from you and its time to rest but I've got a restless mind that's constantly running.. LORD please calm my mind from running wildly and uncontrollably.. This has been going on for 3 weeks and counting.. I'm getting really exhausted sometimes my mind wants to give up.. I'm very very tired this is my 2nd request to you.. I'm shaking as I finish my 2nd request.. Why is all these happening?? Its really upsetting to see so many issues happening.. Its so much to contain and its hard to accept all @ once. HARD !! Its really hard.. It is painful too.. Very PAINFUL =( I've never been so upset in my 18 come 19 years life.. I'm afraid that someday, I'll just break down and there isn't any of me left.. I feel that my mind is eating itself up as each second goes by.. I never thought that this would happen to me but am I going crazy? Is my mind going to a point that it'll lose its relevant thoughts and it just thinks of irrelevant stuff?? I pray that this woun't be a part of my life.. I really don't want it to happen but if You want it to happen, I have no choice to live with it..

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