Realised that I'm blessed with family members who really care about my well being and my welfare. I can't express my love and concern for them currently and it really sucks to be in a state where I want to do something for them yet I can't. I have not thank God enough for this blessing. I really feel like running away far from where I am now but its a really selfish thinking to be thought of.
I have not yet found what I was looking for. I thought I did find but it kind of backfired and I must say that I did rush @ things too. I have many regrets but my uncle told me once that if you don't change now, you'll regret even more. Change the thinking and he believe I'll succeed. I have no confidence in myself no more. Its that I've been bitten over and over again. I wonder when is this ever gonna stop?
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Damien Rice - Cannonballvia FoxyTunes I do wonder sometimes if my aunts and uncle understands how I feel and feel what I've gone through. Having the intentions of pouring myself out once again. Wondering what I'm doing this for too. Am I gaining attentions or do I just write/type my hearts out. Feeling really caught up this time round. I haven't been myself recently. I do feel different too. Wonder if what did happen was the reason for my being this way. Sigh
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